What's on your mind?
There have been a lot of things on my mind lately…
The friends I’ve made throughout the years and in recent months. Mentally and physically thumbing through sentimental notes, gifts, memories, experiences. Nostalgia of old times and acceptance of how the tide of time ebbs and flows at the edges of relationships, changing them gradually. Realizing that this is not necessarily a good or bad thing. It just is.
Realizing the people who are important to me, who have supported and influenced my life for the better, the people I can count on and confide in. Using this summer to reconnect and reach out, letting the ones I care about know that they are on my mind. I realized I’ve missed some of my friends so much. Distance makes things hard, but it’s worth it. I think I truly understand that now.
Becoming more comfortable and content with myself and not being too harsh with self-criticism (though always striving for improvement). Not comparing my life to those of others.
Though I naturally keep the opinions and thoughts of others in mind (which can be both a blessing and a curse), I’m learning (still) that there’s a boundary. I have a tendency to try to cater to everyone and sometimes forget about myself. Learning that, sometimes, what others think has little place in my own personal decisions.
The meaning of life, the beauty of nature. Maintaining health, exercise, sleep. Among other things. Sorry it’s such a hodgepodge of random thoughts.
Rereading this reminded me of the top regrets of the dying post I mentioned a while back: I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.
Hopefully, I’m on the right track. :)